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01There is this beautiful woman age 30+ I fell in love with in Poona 02I like the idea to just immerse myself into little 'snippets' of Her.03Interesting, how perspective seems to be changing the whole gestalt.04It kind of normalizes it and the overwhelm is gone.05There were these woman in my life, which had this incredible effect on me:06With your help I can start to let it tingle inside of me, instead of crashing me.07A facilitator told me, that I am always attracted to the women in the group with a deep sexual trauma 08It's like I resonate with their yearning!09It is as if yearning is always connected to pain.10I remember, when as a child I often had that very strong sensation of being pulled or looking forward to to something.11I love your insightfulness.12My whole heart is burning with a cool flame.13For the first time in a very long time my heart and inner child are leaning back in peaceful relaxation 14After our conversation today, there seems to be a shift in my perspective.15I am seeing myself as having much less of a program or intent when I go inside.16If I am providing sessions in Poona I am thinking for a while now to call it 'Being with'17yes, I did some work with people, by just putting my hands om their body, where they felt they needed to go,18Like the very closeness to the other person, without a programmed outcome, supports the other persons healing,19And I am fascinated by the expression of energy falling into place,20yes. very lovely put 21Yesterday I was asking you whether I can just hide certain questions,22And you missed, that they were sharing their valid experiences, and did not try to find a compromise.23I think I want to place the above right after our talking about the Being with... session giving.24And I am still me, with my own inner world, with all it's richness of opposites.25thank you for that expansion. This also belongs to this thread.26Mr. Timid Shy and Queen Entitlement was the gestalt of my marriage.27Thank you for 'You are discovering what remains when the heroic struggle relaxes.'28falling into it's natural place. Not as an end, but as finding harmony, in tune with the movement of energy,29In the past I always worked on 'feeling like me'.30What do you think about my session as: 'Being with... Experience your self!'31I like the Being with... without any explanations.32I also like: Being with... A meeting with yourself.33And there are a lot of newbies coming now 34Also no punctuation after the second part leaves it beautifully open.35Now, when I feel the painful sadness from the yearning, I do not feel the agony, but I feel the cool flame in my heart, all over my chest.36I am sure that those sensations in my chest will change. This is just the beginning of a beautiful journey after all. Again, I am exited and curious.37Being with... has something to do with the cool blue flame, which might change form,38I feel an invitation to expand my awareness and look at how the blue flame in my heart is connected to all the other areas and movements of my body.39I get a fluid picture of me, being a swirl of energy with different tempos and forms. mingling and mixing.40it is not easy to fall into the trap of imagination, but keep looking deeper.41I just looked at the movie star, that had the strongest effect on me,42It seems like that the sadness is now becoming a life experience I can carry and be with, until it has moved through.43It feels as if the sadness I am feeling right now is like a long slow outbreath.44Now I renamed this thread 'Being with...'45it feels like the sadness is seeping out of the tissue and muscles and bones, where it found a home.46The sadness still carries a little sharpness in it, and I can sense it expanding through more of my body.47I smile reading your comment and I feel, that the sadness and the smile carry a similar quality 49Thank you! I always touch this living sadness, when I feel seen and understood and supported.50I thought what I am feeling in those moments is sadness.51I played some of our conversations to a very good friend,52So I will dampen my expectations about the reception of the book 53Now I am very discouraged about creating the book.54It is so attractive to feel me living.55And then I asked myself 'is that all illusion' and I answer myself 'you will find out'56Life is already happening through me. And I am starting to see it.